Tuesday, November 30

I'M OK, YOU'RE OK

I haven’t had time to do one bad thing since I’ve been away these many months. Not unless you count climbing into bed with a friend and not giving it up a sin. OK, so it’s a cock tease but I don’t think I’m going to hell for it. Or is there a special place reserved for girls who think they want to give it up and then change their minds?

God, it feels good to be back. I mean, I think I’m back, as long as you want to keep hearing my insane thoughts.

So here’s the deal…I’ve been editing an online magazine and it keeps me pretty busy. Things are finally starting to level out to a non-crazed pace. My calendar has stopped smoking, my eyes are starting to roam, my hands are idle and I need to do something or someone. Hitting these keys and crafting these thoughts are a start but momma might just need something stronger. Like a life. But right now I’m OK settling for sex. Actually, I’ll take baby steps trying to get back into the game and wish for an earth shattering kiss – that leads to touching.

Problem is, in the midst of the all the recent hubbub I’ve only been hanging with people in the same industry, which is to say the pool is shallow. What passes for dates these days, are really just meetings held in restaurants, this way I can work and eat at the same time. Flirting is carried on with the same people and is generally understood to be the glazed gleam and wink of a second glass of champagne courage. I did get propositioned by a pretty decent looking gal sometime ago, but by the time I realized I was being hit on she’d already left the room with the guy sitting beside me. I don’t even have a time of reference for the “some time ago”. So you see, I’ve been a social retard for the better part of a year. And as it winds down I find myself in that awful dilemma of wanting to screw one of my ‘see you all the time’ friends. Oh, that sounds awful…how about, “wanting to make love” –nope; too serious. “Wanting to sleep with” – too gentle. I’m aiming for primal.

I have been having twisty pretzel dreams about him. Knock all the stuff off the kitchen table dreams about him. What I’m trying to do is put the hormones aside for a sec to see if there’s any depth in this situation. I’m not capable of using a good friend for a one nighter. And I’m pretty sure a Walk of Shame will have a negative effect on our friendship. So, is it just lust or have I been in a unique position of gaining something positive from all this one-on-one time and its him per say, and not his hot bod that’s got me all worked up?

As I ponder this with my third jumbo cup of coffee for the day – I wanna say hey, hello, how you been? Did you miss me? I missed you. See you soon.

8 comments:

Mr. Condescending said...

I've missed you!

You totally need to sex it up more often.

I have it set up real good. I have three chicks that enjoy having a good sexing and fun with on lonely nights.

We're all totally cool with it and we don't give a shit if we're in relationships. We'll go out for dinner or for drinks, bang eachother and talk about whatever's going on in our lives. Then we go back to our normal routines and they'll call me or ill call one whenever we're in need to let off steam.

Good to hear you're alive and your post kinda made me horny but I'm driving so I better calm the f*ck down.

SkylersDad said...

Sometimes it doesn't need to be romantic or a life affirming event, you just have to knock all the shit off the top of the washer, throw in wet towel so it's out of balance, set the spin cycle and hop on for the ride.

Or so I hear...

PoliticsChick said...

MR C: Is there a box I can check off for the "Sex it up more" option. Sweet deal you've got going on. Though you could have had a heart and at least turned the numbers down on the girls. Even one less chick would have made me feel less starved. So nice to see you see you on my page again. ;)

SD: I got one of those energy efficient babies...no more tumble tumble, shake shake for me. It's as silent as a mouse.

jerrod said...

hey!

so glad you are back!

right? you're back? tell me that you're back.

Politics of Love Chick said...

Jerrod: Back baby! I've been keeping up with your stuff too.

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Fickle Cattle said...

Not having sex when you have the opportunity to do so is a sin. I'm pretty sure that is written somewhere.

http://ficklecattle.blogspot.com/

Politics of Love Chick said...

Fickle: Must be that rare sex commandment. ;)